Does anyone ever get scared that they are going to be stuck like this forever. Or that eventually you wont be able to fight against the thoughts and it just sends you into a spiral. Also sometimes it feels like an urge to act on these thoughts and its really scary and i dont know how to deal with this and im just really scared and i just wanna get better. Any tips?
I write down my thoughts to feel like I’m controlling them, and not the other way around
@inth3667 how do u write them?
@lulu17 Whatever is on my mind that’s hurting me, I make it real simple, I prefer a paper and pencil, whatever voice or idea I have in my head, I put that on paper
@inth3667 thank you
@lulu17 Do you want me to send an example of how I wrote them?
@inth3667 yes please
@lulu17 Ok but do you have any triggers I should know about before I send them?
@inth3667 not that i know of
@lulu17 What will happen if there's no way to prove something you KNOW is true but nobody believes you, then what happens when you have to lie for your safety and then worse things happen because of it, what happens if my family is forced to suffer because of my cowardice? Finally all I have is my family and the truth, but I’ve lost everything including our lives but I’m supposed to accept this. That’s one general idea of many of my intrusive thoughts. Sorry if that’s confusing or overwhelming
It happens to me too usually i remind myself all what i ve been through in my life and just think that as i went through so much before this too is just a hard phase but it will pass and i take a deep breath for now having a deep breath for like 10 sec was really effectiv to me when i have a hard time
hey there, i totally get where you're coming from. the fear of being stuck in this cycle and not being able to fight those thoughts is really tough. 😔 i'm dealing with a different theme of ocd myself, but the feelings of fear and wanting to get better are super relatable. i found something that might help you out. there's this app called "unstuck ocd therapy tools" that my local ocd support group recommended. it’s pretty cool because it gives you ai-personalized guidance and exercises right when you need them. also, you might find the ocd reddit helpful for connecting with others who really get what you're going through. it’s been a game-changer for me, and i hope it helps you feel less alone in this. 🌟
@TanyaShelby22 Thank you i really appreciate it :)
@lulu17 - please take care!
I’m going through this.
Does anyone especially with harm ocd feel like they are their thoughts and want to do these things? Like no matter how hard I try and even during my therapy session I get the constant, “what if this isn’t OCD?”, “you like these thoughts”, “your a bad person”, “your going to act on these thoughts.” It gotten to the point where it feels like I’m actually this person and that I have changed into an evil person and it’s so scary cause it’s gotten to the point where it feels like I’m never going to get my life back and that’s saddening. I’ve never had a violent history never hurt anyone or anything but I don’t know why it feels like I am.
Is anyone else scared to not fight their intrusive thoughts about seriously hurting people and even killing them? Like the premise of ERP is to just let the thoughts flow and not do compulsions, but I’m scared if I don’t stop them or ruminate to keep them in check, then they will get out of hand and I will suddenly want to act on them. I’m terrified that suddenly I won’t be the kind, empathetic, harmless person I’ve always been. It doesn’t make any sense to me. I also fear that it’s not OCD and I’ve just been faking it or trying to convince myself that it is OCD.
I’m wondering if anyone could please give me some advice/tips on breaking this cycle? I have had OCD for 12+ years, however I have only recently been officially diagnosed. I’m struggling significantly with harm OCD, involving thoughts/urges of harm towards other people, particularly my loved ones. This is incredibly distressing to me, as I don’t want to harm anyone and it is constantly sending me into severe distress and panic attacks. I understand that I need to lean into the discomfort/accept my thoughts to move forwards, rather than pushing it away as this adds fuel to the fire - but every time I do, I have a panic attack. My mind constantly tells me I have to act on the urge to get relief and that it’s the ‘only way’ out/to feel better.. I’m stuck in this habitual/learnt behaviour cycle, as I’ve always acted on my urges (not involving harming others) for the past 13 years to get temporary relief and to neutralise thoughts - Every time I think that I need to act on the urge or as though I’ll snap and act on it, I feel terrified and scared, then feel very distressed or have a panic attack.
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