Really need some advice

So recently I made a post about having the theme of fear of psychosis and schizophrenia which has led to the fear of not getting sleep and being scared I’ll go crazy and start hallucinating from the lack of sleep. Last night I was able to sleep some hours after not being able to properly sleep for 4 nights (like I actually dreamt) but of course when I woke up I got the the thought “what if you didn’t sleep and you think you did” “what if you’re just hallucinating it” it made me instantly sick to my stomach! Of course I know I slept but these thoughts just get crazier everyday making me feel like I’m actually crazy. I just want to cry. It’s a constant battle everyday and I’m just so tired. I’ve never had these thoughts before. If anyone has gone through this please tell me what helped you. I miss getting home and looking forward to sleeping not being scared I won’t. And I miss just living my life and not having thoughts questioning if it’s my reality or not. Please I could really use some advice.

Username: MalisimoMalisimo

Date posted: 13w ago

I commented before on your last post but didn’t go into detail about my sleep ocd. I had the sleep somatic ocd for about a year. I had probably 100 nights of zero sleep insomnia over that year, and used benzos to sleep many other nights. I know it is pure torture. You sometimes are not sure you slept. Now I just go to sleep peacefully again after recovering. What you are doing is trying to solve sleep. You are thinking about sleep and making it a problem to solve. Will I sleep? Did I sleep? What will happen if I don’t sleep? Will I go crazy? In reality there is no problem to solve. As you saw last night you can sleep, ok problem solved. Now it’s time to move on. Sleep is not something to solve, in fact if you don’t focus on it you will just fall asleep guaranteed because it’s natural for your body to rest. OCD is all about trying to solve a problem with no answers. When you go to bed tonight tell yourself I’m am simply here to rest, I don’t have to sleep. When my body and mind are tired enough they will sleep and I don’t control this. You can read this to yourself before bed. There is nothing to solve, I don’t need to know anything, nothing needs to be controlled, don’t think about it, goodnight, end of story. You will be fine and overcome this. OCD once you figure out how it works isn’t so powerful as it seems.

Username: thinkalot24thinkalot24

Date posted: 12w ago

I’ve never commented before but I’m here to tell you you aren’t alone. Sleep ocd is something I have struggled with for years. But I have recovered from it. I learned to be uncomfortable with sleeping. Years ago it scared me so much now when the thoughts happen I try to allow them. Just know you are not alone this theme is so tough. I’m proud of you

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 12w ago

@thinkalot24 Glad to say I got sleep this weekend after a week of just running on 3-4 hours. I was able to sleep my 8 hours of deep sleep drool and everything 😂 one post that helped me was nothing lasts forever. It definitely was my worse theme but I’m learning everyday how to get through these themes and not let them bother me .

Username: thinkalot24thinkalot24

Date posted: 12w ago

@Anonymous ha I’m glad to hear. That’s also one thing I have learned with ocd. No theme no thought will last forever no matter how scary it is. Def having a tough time right now too and reading this and hearing how you deal with it has helped me too. I’m learning too. OCD is hard :/ but we’ve got this

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 12w ago

@thinkalot24 Im sorry to hear that. It really is hard dealing with this mental illness and how our minds become our worst enemy. An ocd spike hit me hard in August. I couldn’t eat for days and cried for a whole week straight from how scared I was of the thoughts I was having. I never felt so scared in my life. Right now I’m doing better-ish, I can’t afford therapy so I’m just taking advice of people who have done ERP for the themes I have and like they say sit with the uncertainty and uncomfortableness and just be like “maybe I do, maybe not, maybe I am” towards my thoughts. So I still have my moments of falling back but I remember to keep going and not let this bring me down. I try my best to enjoy the good moments that I have and remember how loved I am and that I’m not alone. If you ever need to talk I’m here.

Username: thinkalot24thinkalot24

Date posted: 12w ago

@Anonymous Thank you right back at you!! Hearing that I’m not alone has helped so much.

Username: Lilly2442!Lilly2442!

Date posted: 11w ago

How are you? I have the exact same fears!

Username: j

Date posted: 3y ago

I don’t normally make posts like this but if anyone can relate or has advice so I don’t feel so alone I would appreciate it! I feel like crying and I’m so anxious. So I’ve been dealing with an ocd flare up since February. It started out as contamination and harm after I had a really bad experience on a edible. The contamination mostly centered around the fear of someone accidentally giving me an edible to someone putting it in my food or water. Then it went from there to my Brian going you know what’s worse than edibles? LSD. So then I obsessed over that and it’s been like that on and off. I’ve had an extremely hard time with it it’s been one of the worst themes I ever had. I don’t eat certain things. Especially sweets. I avoid them. I avoid taking medication Bc I’m scared. I limit myself. I’m horrible about opening water bottles and if it doesn’t open just right I won’t drink out of it. I know it’s crazy I know it’s untrue but the panic I feel traces back to that night. I don’t ever want to feel that out of control again it scared me so bad I got diagnosed with ptsd (to be fair I had a lot of unresolved trauma that caused my glass to overfill) well, I’ve been going to EMDR therapy it’s got my ptsd under control but the ocd is louder. My ocd is clawing to stay alive. I’ve started to have intrusive thoughts now about my boyfriend might slip something into my water even though ITS NOT TRUE. So then I panic because the thoughts are so irrational that I get scared like why would I ever think that about him???? But the intrusive thoughts are so jarring and I don’t want my ocd to focus on him now! I need advice! I’ve been prescribed pristiq but haven’t taken it Bc you guessed it.,.. I’m scared to! I can’t go on like this! The thoughts are so irrational it scares me even though the rational side of me knows it’s not true but I guess that’s ocd. We get scared of the thoughts even though we know it’s not true and I know it’s my brain trying to keep the ocd going. I know therapy must be working otherwise my theme subjects wouldn’t have changed so fast. I’m so tired of this.

Username: confusedbuta...

Date posted: 2y ago

Scared of going insane

I’m scared that I’m going insane. I’m scared that I’m gonna hurt someone. I thought I was getting better. Why is it coming back now? During the school day it’s usually okay and easy to distract myself, but when I am home it gets bad cause I have so much free time. It often makes me feel like I don’t recognize my surroundings and like life doesn’t feel real, even though I do!! Like I know where I am, but it feels like I don’t. It also does that with people occasionally where like I know them but my brain makes the connection I have with them feel weird. I’m scared that I’m going insane. I’m scared that I’m just gonna black out and hurt somebody, or lose all my empathy and hurt someone. I don’t even know where these come from, or how they relate but I can’t stop worrying about it. And I’m scared to post this because what if someone replies with yes, I am going insane. I just need comfort and reassurance, even though I know that would only make it worse. But how else do I deal with this?

Username: Nate S

Date posted: 1y ago

existential ocd and harm ocd

I keep having this what if thought that we’re not real or in a coma and it’s followed by DP/DR. To make it worse it’s followed by harm OCD. Thoughts coming up such as “if nothings real then you can k*ll someone or yourself” or “only way to escape this feeling and dream is to k*ll yourself.” Even thought deep down I would never do anything to hurt myself or family. Just can’t seem to shake this thought and then combine that with DP/DR it’s crippling. I’ve dealt with this a while ago but it’s back and has consumed every waking moment. I’ve cried myself to sleep for a week now and I just want to go back to how I was a little while ago. Anyone else had this and how have you gotten through it or have any advice. I really really need some guidance and help. PLEASE RESPOND IF YOU HAVE ANY INPUT AND HELP!

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