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Username: Cammy123

Date posted: 33w ago

Religious OCD - Blasphemous Intrusive Thoughts

Hi everyone! My main theme in religious OCD is doubting God & Jesus! It hurts me heart I love them but I’m trying to remember His love and grace! Recently I’ve been having major blasphemous intrusive thoughts! I’ve had them before throughout my OCD journey but this time it’s kinda hard to let go and they’re coming so hard! They scare me! They can be very mean and just disgusting. Cursing, denying and just thoughts I hate! I ask for forgiveness and don’t always “feel” forgiven! I love Jesus & God! These thoughts hurt so much! Sometimes they make me feel like I want them or I’m saying them on purpose! I feel like I subconsciously “check” & ruminating on them. I know this is a normal and common OCD theme but it’s like sometimes I feel like I doubt my OCD! Especially whenever I have blasphemous intrusive thoughts! Like my brain just thinks “nope it’s you not OCD”. Like it doesn’t feel like OCD but Ik OCD can make it feel “very real”. It makes me feel like God is mad at me or upset! Or He doesn’t love me as much or just can’t be “forgiven” which I know is a lie and not true! I love God so much! Ik OCD attacks on hat we love it’s just my mind will doubt I have it! Please any tips to overcome these thoughts! I feel a lot of shame, guilt, fear, anxiety and sadness for having these thoughts! I know people say “they’re just thoughts” and not bad but they feel like that. Any advice?! Has anyone else gone through this?

Username: Dutch75Dutch75

Date posted: 33w ago

The fact that you hate and reject the thoughts proves that they are not coming from within you. Treat these thoughts as outside construction noise and disregard/ignore them. God has already forgiven you through Jesus Christ sacrificial death on the cross, and you are His child. Nothing and no one can separate you from God. “Nothing shall ever be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Another good scripture to remind yourself of is, “the blood of Jesus Christ, His Son cleanses us of all sin.” Once you were saved, you were forever saved and nothing can change that. Go to God and pray the word by saying it is written, and when you pray believe you receive. I hope this advice gives you peace.

Username: Brooke cookieBrooke cookie

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 33w ago

Hi Cammy 123 , I also have intrusive thoughts about my faith. I worry that god hates me for my ocd thoughts or that i will or already made a deal with satan and now god will or as Bandaged me for them. Also have thoughts of is god real ? , why I do I pure ocd and long term depressed , is he mad at me? When I have these thoughts I have stop and remember god and Jesus will always love me and they know about my ocd thoughts. They know I can not help but have my ocd thoughts and they are just thoughts. Please know that god and Jesus will always love you and your ocds thoughts are just thoughts they are not you or your faith. Both you and me will push through these thoughts and live the great lives god as planned for us. Sorry you seem to have some of the some thoughts that I have they really are terrible . My thoughts my been making to hard to sleep , eat , relax for 3 weeks . Some times I do not know what else to do but cry my heart out.

Username: Cammy123Cammy123

Date posted: 33w ago

@Brooke cookie Thank you so much Brooke! It helps me realize I’m not alone! These blasphemous thoughts are tormenting! Make me cry my eyes out. Gets me to the point sometimes I’m so exhausted to even do anything. I feel like I have like OCD Tourette! Like my mind will blurt out a blasphemous thought and I’m like NO I don’t meant that!! Please forgive me! It’s just so scary because they sometimes “feel” like on purpose but I feel like it’s me maybe “checking” if the thoughts are there and maybe subconsciously doing it. I love God & Jesus so much. I’ve dealt with this before multiple times but this time it’s kinda stuck and I’m trying to remind myself it’s OCD and not me! Literally had intrusive thoughts about cursing, rejecting and thoughts about the devil! I somehow got over them! Even last week I was able to brush them off but this time not so easy. I’m trying to remind myself God & Jesus loves me no matter what thoughts I have!! Also they’re just thoughts! Not actions! We think just because we think something we automatically think it’s true or we said it. I pray that God & Jesus are with me through this and not replying on my feelings!

Username: Brooke cookieBrooke cookie

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 33w ago

@Cammy123 Stay strong cammy123, god knows everything about everything if we like it or not. He knows they are just ocd thoughts you need to let of any shame or guilt of the thoughts and let them go. I know it is hard to do I sometimes still get stuck on my own thoughts. God whats you to let them thoughts go so you can think about what he has planed for you life instead of the ocd thoughts. You can do I girl :)

Username: Liv24Liv24

Date posted: 33w ago

My heart hurts because it’s like I’ve written this😭😭 I’m going through the exact same thing literally!!! Im crying now because of how much I can relate to this!! I feel like I’m constantly ‘checking’ the thoughts are still there and I’m a way I feel uneasy when I’m not having them if that makes sense? Like I HATE the thoughts and I want nothing more for them to stop but then my brains telling me I want them that’s why I keep checking for them!!! Mine are blasphemous, doubting & sexual about Jesus and god. I literally feel TORMENTED that’s the only way I can describe it. I’ve even Googled if I could be possessed because I can’t deal with the fault my brain is conjuring up these types of thoughts!! I can’t physically concentrate on anything I’m just in auto pilot constantly and I’m sorry I can’t help you I just hope you get some comfort knowing your not alone!! X

Username: Liv24Liv24

Date posted: 33w ago

@Liv24 And I know what you mean about I can’t leave them be because I’m also at the point we’re I don’t know if I’m checking for them or they are there and then if I leave them i feel like I want them and my mind makes new ones up!!

Username: MichaeldsMichaelds

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 33w ago

@Liv24 I’ve had the same exact thing and wondering about the possession, but supposedly we can only be oppressed not possessed once we have the Holy Spirit. I’ve been going through the same thing and this is the worst thing ever. But in some weird way this is literal proof that OCD is from the enemy to begin with and FAITH is the weapon against it. Just put on the ARMOR of God! We must prevail.

Username: Liv24Liv24

Date posted: 33w ago

@Anonymous It’s horrific isn’t it!!!!!! Especially when your braining is tell you you want these thoughts!! I try so much to be present and not in my head all the time but it feel impossible i feel like the second my brain gets a change it’s searching for the most vile things it can think of! I just want to feel normal again 😭😭😭 I feel like I’m preempting the thoughts myself to like I can’t stop repeating words/phrases in my head which I usually say after a thought but I find myself going it constantly which then triggers more thoughts! It’s exhausting! Are you in therapy????

Username: MichaeldsMichaelds

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 33w ago

@Liv24 Yes I am. NOCD has been a godsend. I used to have ocd about something else and I over came it. Now it transformed, as ocd does. I feel like my mind is not my own lately. I’m wondering “ where are these thoughts coming from?” I got triggered by something I saw on you tube and it’s been a spiral :( I keep going to church and I keep being standfast about seeking the Lord and I’m telling the darkness that it cannot win, because I won’t stop seeking God. So it’s going to have to just quit bothering me.

Username: MichaeldsMichaelds

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 33w ago

@cammy123 I’m sorry to hear, I’ve been having the same stuff happening, and I can’t believe it. I never thought my OCD would attack this.

Username: Steven55!Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 33w ago

I've had these, too. Yes, they're very disturbing. I do know that God knows me better than I know myself and he knows these disturbing thoughts, images, etc, are OCD-related. Please keep on mind that OCD attaches itself to who are what you value, as well what you fear. It's the nature of the disorder. Are you in therapy?

Username: JMM1990JMM1990

Date posted: 33w ago

All of these pop into my mind all day every day. It’s absolutely miserable, I feel crazy. I hate you go through this, but I’ve always felt I was alone with these blasphemous intrusive thoughts and that no one would understand me if I said it out loud to talk about it. Glad I’m not alone

Username: Kit Kat Chocolate Kit Kat Choc...

Date posted: 25w ago

Hi there! Someone on here encouraged Christian people to check out Mark DeJesus online. He is very knowledgeable about religious OCD. Hope this helps! 😊

Username: Cammy123

Date posted: 34w ago

Religious OCD & Intrusive Thoughts

So about 2 weeks ago I started having blasphemous intrusive thoughts about God & Jesus! I’ve had them before but they’re hard to brush off because you feel awful and disgusted for even having them. They were “rejecting thoughts” I finally was able to just let them float on by and not pay attention to them. My main theme is doubting God & Jesus but I’ve noticed it’ll switch on me. Sometimes my mind will doubt if it’s OCD! So currently 2 days ago I’ve been getting the blasphemous thoughts again but when I said “I love you Jesus” I heard instead of Jesus it was Satan! I panicked and sometimes when I say I love Jesus and God I hear “I love you S____” it freaks me out!!! I love God & Jesus so much! Those thoughts cause so much anxiety!!! I would never say that thought and I wish it would go away or remove all those thoughts! I Like ughh those awful intrusive thoughts hurts so much! Some times if feels like I think them or say them purposely in my mind! But I try to remind myself I don’t want them! They cause so much anxiety and distress for a reason! It’s just so annoying when it’s constantly changing and throwing other “themes” I try to tell myself this is still in the same category! I had a certain blasphemous thought weeks ago and now it’s a “new” one and I think it’s still a thought it’s just different and maybe that’s how it’s trying to trip me up! But then usually a bunch of them start coming like beating me down! Maybe it’s the themes switching up on me again but ughh it’s really hard! Makes it feel like it’s me but I don’t want these thoughts at all!!! Everytime I say I love Jesus & God those thoughts come and just randomly! I feel like it’s “me” but I’m reminding myself it’s OCD! The more I react the more they come! They make me feel like God is mad at me or He doesn’t love me which I know isn’t true at all! I know He loves me so much!! It’s just so sad that my mind thinks that! Sometimes I feel like He is mad or will leave me but I know that’s not true!! Any advice please 😭

Username: Cammy123

Date posted: 32w ago

Religious OCD

Does anyone feel they say/think there blasphemous intrusive thoughts on purpose? Sometimes I feel like I say them but i reject that! I don’t want to think these thoughts! u would never say them out loud! Apart of me thinks since I thought stop a lot and thought replace a lot thats when it’s coming. I start thinking "don’t think it, don’t think it". I’ll start rejecting the other thoughts but mid way they start going to God & Jesus! Or I’ll feel cursing thoughts coming and I’ll say f OCD or f these lies then it’ll go over to God & Jesus! Then you just end of thinking it. Idk if my OCD is wanting me to think “oh since you thought it you said”. Like Thought Action type thing. Does anyone else go through this? It hurts. i love God & Jesus so much and to think "what if i thought this or said it in my mind on purpose!" any advice?

Username: Cammy123

Date posted: 30w ago

Religious OCD - intrusive thoughts

I love God & Jesus so much and having these awful blasphemous thoughts suck! I’ve been through this before and eventually got over it but it came back! I get cussing thoughts, rejection thoughts and just the opposite thoughts of who I am and what I value! I love them so much and I get scared what if I’ve said these intrusive thoughts out loud! I don’t think I have but the thoughts can be just so loud! Any advice to move forward past these thoughts? I’m trying to remind myself God & Jesus loves me no matter what but it can be hard when I’m being plagued by these blasphemous thoughts that make you doubt yourself too! Makes you doubt if you’re a Christian for these awful thoughts! Please any advice? Will God & Jesus be with me no matter what? I love them so much!

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