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Username: jayqrc

Date posted: 35w ago

Absolute Worst Ocd theme i’ve had

I don’t even know how to start but this is the worst type of intrusive thoughts i’ve had and it’s breaking me down.I really need to find comfort in this but have no idea how.I have intrusive thoughts about my religion and God which I can’t even describe in detail because I feel horrible about it.Its thoughts about death,contradicting my beliefs and saying i don’t like my religion and what I believe in,terrifying thoughts about afterlife. really need help with this It’s literally tearing me down and it’s sickening to me.I’ll try going into more detail if anyone needs it,if I don’t feel too uncomfortable.

Username: jayqrcjayqrc

Date posted: 35w ago

Also I forgot to add that there was a small quake where I live and the intrusive thoughts are making me feel way worse about this situation

Username: ATLAfan164ATLAfan164

Date posted: 35w ago

I’m feeling a slightly similar way. I also have intrusive thoughts about God and the quake spooked me where I live. Someone did tell me that ocd tends to attach itself onto things we care about

Username: jayqrcjayqrc

Date posted: 35w ago

@ATLAfan164 Do you have a way to deal with the thoughts ? It’s really stressful because my brain just keeps repeating,it makes me think that he will think I want these thoughts which I don’t because I don’t agree with anything they say

Username: ATLAfan164ATLAfan164

Date posted: 35w ago

@jayqrc I can’t give you a complete answer since I’m still dealing with this but some things I’ve done: I’ve stopped reading commentary from certain types of people. I play a lot of puzzle games on my phone 😅. I also remind myself that God knows I have OCD and He understands. I don’t know what religion you follow, but I think about Jesus’s Love and Forgiveness and the Bible verses that state that NOTHING can separate anyone from His Love.

Username: Ryan MullenRyan Mullen

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 35w ago

It is horrible. I am still trying to recover from Scrupulosity. Trying to piece my life back together. You are not your thoughts. Keep going and trusting God will deliver you.

Username: jayqrcjayqrc

Date posted: 35w ago

@Ryan Mullen Thank you 🙏 It’s really difficult because the thoughts keep appearing usually I would ignore it when I had the other themes but this Is absolutely horrible because it’s messing with my beliefs so I’m lost on how to deal with this

Username: Ryan MullenRyan Mullen

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 35w ago

@jayqrc I 100% understand you. It's been my hardest theme as well.

Username: Mr LynnMr Lynn

Date posted: 35w ago

This sounds terrible distressing. I think you can rest assured God knows your true thoughts and knows you don’t really think those things that are bothering you. You really have nothing to fear. I live with other scary OCD and usually realize my OCD fears are unfounded.

Username: jayqrcjayqrc

Date posted: 35w ago

@Mr Lynn That’s what I am holding on to because I really don’t want to think this ,and I’m young and don’t really how to explain this to anyone it’s really just heartbreaking for me

Username: Liv24Liv24

Date posted: 35w ago

I can relate to this so much I’m sorry I can’t help but please no your not alone. Im literally crying while typing this because I feel SOO HOPELESS and lost. Last night I was awake for hours with the most VILE thoughts about God my heart was pounding out my chest I trying to think or anything other then my thoughts I tried listening to music, praying but nothing was working. The thoughts are they may repetitive it makes me believe I do want them and makes me question do I even care? We’ll obviously I don’t care ahiht my faith otherwise I wouldn’t have these thoughts and feeling 😭😭

Username: jayqrcjayqrc

Date posted: 35w ago

@Liv24 I’m so sorry that you cried while writing this I am crying once again too just thinking how my life would be if this wasn’t happening.I also feel the same way as you it’s truly really painful because i’m still a teen and don’t know how to find help with this.I also try every type of distraction for this but it still finds a way to enter my mind while i’m distracted.Im really terrified about what God thinks of me,I really don’t want these thoughts to keep torturing me.I really hope the intrusive thoughts stop for all of us 🩷🙏

Username: Liv24Liv24

Date posted: 35w ago

@jayqrc Its absolute torture because I feel so tormented all the time it’s takes the joy out of everything I do!! I can’t go out and have a good time because bang the thoughts are there constantly😭 what I would say is try mindfulness I’ve just downloaded the calm app and I put my earphones in and listen to the 15 mins guided meditation ones and it seems to be the only time I get abit of a relief!! It’s taken me nearly a week to be able to actaylly concentrate when I’m doing it but I’m just holding out the more and more I do it I am able to get out of my head more because I’ve read a lot of it being really good for people with pure o especially because it’s all mental and ruminationing is the worst part! So try have a go at that!!’ Also audio books seems to take my mind of it mostly ones about ocd because I get really invested in them haha. Hope you okay ❤️❤️❤️

Username: jayqrcjayqrc

Date posted: 35w ago

@Liv24 Thanks!! I downloaded the calm app and i’ll try it everyday I really hope it helps me with this because if I get therapy idk if i would trust them 😭.I also listen to audiobooks but the thoughts interrupt my focus as always.I think going outside does help with some recovery because you’ll have the thoughts but not be scared of being outside,but I know that’s really difficult since i’m going through it 😓. Hope you’re okay too 🙏

Username: Liv24Liv24

Date posted: 35w ago

@jayqrc No I know exactly what you mean! I feel like using the clam app has definitely helped me be able concentrate on the audio books more! I think being outside does help especially if your with a friend I feel like I’m my own worst enemy I just ruminate so much so even if I’m walking I’m lost in my own mind xx

Username: hannie

Date posted: 5y ago

Can intrusive thoughts be very detailed and feel so real? Can they be about anything? Also can they hit out of nowhere? I was laying down trying to meditate when I was hit with a religious theme so badly. I have just felt like I am losing it and the guilt of having it is so strong. I keep thinking about having those thoughts over and over and I feel like something is wrong. Any advice would help. Couple days ago I was struggling with the theme of schizophrenia and now it’s like o have both themes at once.

Username: Jolee0524

Date posted: 35w ago

Religious OCD

Hey guys so I’m new to this. I struggle really bad with religious ocd on top of other themes of ocd i have. But the religious ocd and POCD I have are definitely the hardest two. Today was so hard for me because I was freaking out all day about the eclipse and if it was the end of the world. I grew of in a very strict church and being gay was not acceptable so now I feel I’m morally wrong and unlovable in a sense. I don’t really know how to explain it. Wether it was from my youth pastor outing me on stage in front of all of my friends and hundreds of students, to them praying over me for years on end, before I finally left the church. Yet I still question if my salvation is safe or not. I question if God loves me etc. it gets so bad that I’m convinced everything I do is because I’m possessed by a demon. And I’ll start to vomit. Literally vomit. It sounds wild I know. Wether it’s music my ocd deems demonic or movies or spiritual things such as tarot cards that I enjoy. But my mind will convince me if I use them I will go to hell because that’s what I was taught for so long. I just wish I could get better but I don’t know how and I’m so hopeless.

Username: chihuahua_girl

Date posted: 29w ago

Religion OCD

Hello, I’m very new to this and have never confessed the fact that I struggle with severe scrupulosity (religion ocd) to anyone before. I am not officially diagnosed but I have spent countless hours researching and know that I am dealing with this horrible mental illness. I can’t function anymore. The intrusive thoughts are getting so bad. The moment I wake up they begin to pop into my head & I can’t even sleep because they are just running all over my mind. The thoughts are so bad that I don’t want to repeat them but they mostly are blasphemous bad thoughts. I avoid praying and religious services because it triggers my bad thoughts. I cannot control anything and I have no access to therapy because I’m so scared to ask for help and don’t know how to even describe to my family what I am going through. It’s so debilitating and I just keep repeating these scripts to myself to try and relieve my mind but it just starts all over again. It’s non stop and I know I cannot keep going like this. I don’t know whats real or isn’t, I just want a break. I’m so scared of everything and it’s interfering with my life more and more. If anyone could share some words of encouragement or tips it would be greatly appreciated.

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