My OCD makes me doubt my faith

OCD hijacks everything. You are definitely not alone!!! Lots of people with religious OCD (also called Scrupulosity) have experienced the very same thing. It can be very helpful to go through ERP training though NOCD or somewhere else. Like the person above me said, it’s all about learning to sit with the thoughts and not try to fight them or fix them. You just let them run around in your head like a bunch a bees in a swarm. They seem scary, but they actually can’t hurt you. And if you put a stick in the hive and try to tinker with it or fix it, you only make the bees fly around even worse. Yes, you are right. This isn’t a faith problem at all. It’s just OCD. And you just need to treat it like OCD. Which means you ignore the thoughts and don’t try to fix them. Trying to “believe enough” is a trap. Trying to get things “just right” is a trap. God did not design us to feel like we had to get things perfect in our own fleshly strength. He wants us to live in freedom from all that. You’ll get there!! The tools for OCD out there are very good, and many people recover. The more you learn to use these tools, the more OCD loses it’s power. Eventually you get to the point where you can ignore it all. It has nothing to do with real faith. It’s just a brain disorder. No worries!!! We know how to treat that!!

Your not alone!! It’s like every time I try to say god is real and I find evidence that I think will help a thought, another thought comes in to doubt it .. please tell me u know what I mean

I have experienced this. You have to learn to sit with the thoughts. Say maybe maybe not. I'm uncertain. And then sit with the fear and anxiety. It is awful I know but don't stop. Try to stop ruminating about fixing it. Just sit with the uncertainty. Do the next thing. Don't let it stop you from doing. Again I know it's hard but you can do it!

OCD wants to keep you focused on “fixing” and making sure you are right. We have to stop all that. What we really need to learn is how to let go of those things and TRUST God, instead of spinning in all these compulsions to fix ourselves.

I wish I could give you a hug and tell you it will be OK. It will be OK. I have been where you are and I tear up thinking about my past self having to go through that. The experience of Scrup has been horrible and beautiful all at the same time. I don't know why you have to go through this, but I can now see clearly why I had to and you will too. Jesus Christ is so good and he will not let his go. You are his!!

Oh yeah it’s goin to make you doubt , but God has the final say over your life. ✨♥️

I’ve been through similar. When that happens to me, I reflect on my actions and compare it against my intrusive thoughts. I chose to give my life to Christ, choose to attend church, choose to tell others about Christ, choose to help the poor, choose to work on my attitude and being patient with others, choose to pray for others instead of gossiping or feeling jealous, choose to do devotion, etc In essence, the way I live my life is in complete opposite to the thoughts. This is what keeps me grounded (along with prayer) Hope this helps!