I need help I feel like I’m gonna lose control

I’m so scared I don’t even know if this is OCD at this point. I keep having horrible intrusive thoughts on acting upon my worst fear and the feelings and thoughts are so strong and intense I’m genuinely convinced I might lose control and do something horrible. It feels to real and it’s so constant that I don’t trust myself at all. There are times where it even feels relieving to think about doing something horrible even though it’s the opposite of what I want so feeling like that is so confusing and it’s convincing me I’ve become my worst fear. I’ve been trying everything to avoid anything that brings these thoughts and feelings up because I’m just so scared I’m going to snap and do something horrible. I have therapy soon and I’m really glad about that but I’m scared to tell this to my therapist because I don’t know what’s going to happen. I just need to know I’m not the only one who experiences this because I feel like I’ve just gone crazy at this point. I’m so scared that this isn’t OCD.

Username: deadmeatdeadmeat

Date posted: 41w ago

i PROMISE you, everyone w intrusive thought ocd, especially POCD, has had the, “what if this isn’t OCD? this feels too real, like i would do it” but it really is your anxiety lying to you. ocd is using that against you because it is your worst fear. you won’t lose control. your thoughts and feelings are not fact. don’t try to avoid the thoughts, or the triggers. it makes it worse. it’s so uncomfortable, but confronting your triggers will brain wash your ocd into thinking it can’t bother you anymore. when the thoughts come up, no matter how real they feel, don’t try to suppress them, or figure them out, or avoid them. let them pass, be uncomfortable, say, “maybe! i don’t know” to your thoughts (even if you do know) the less you react, the less the thoughts will happen. i’ve gone through it too- even feeling like i’m losing it. you really aren’t alone! your therapist won’t judge you either

Username: brittanys12brittanys12

Date posted: 41w ago

Yes. I have learned this is 100% OCD. If the therapist you are going to see isn’t trained in OCD please switch to someone on this platform that can actually help you. It’s good to be honest to them they are here for you.

Username: Neko_MancerNeko_Mancer

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 41w ago

@brittanys12 Luckily the therapist I’m seeing does specialize in ocd so I’m grateful for that

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 41w ago

I’m going through the same this morning really bad😭 my thoughts feel like urges and desires and extremely real. I am stressed out but the thoughts feel as if I really do want to do these things. I hate this.

Username: Neko_MancerNeko_Mancer

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 41w ago

@Anonymous I’m so sorry you are experiencing this too. It’s so painful and isolating to experience ocd this intensely. When it’s this bad leaning into uncertainty seems so impossible but you know you have to because fighting with ocd is just a losing battle

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 41w ago

@Neko_Mancer It really is, thank you for being honest in your post . It really helps knowing I’m not alone in this🙏🏼

Username: Mitch4Mitch4

Date posted: 41w ago

Your post is exactly what I’m going through right now, it’s actually the WORST! The thoughts are one thing but the feelings that come with them make it feel so real. I’ve been effected by this for a year now and it’s been so long of this crap you start to really believe that’s who you are. Makes me so sad.

Username: BetterDays

Date posted: 3y ago

Does anyone especially with harm ocd feel like they are their thoughts and want to do these things? Like no matter how hard I try and even during my therapy session I get the constant, “what if this isn’t OCD?”, “you like these thoughts”, “your a bad person”, “your going to act on these thoughts.” It gotten to the point where it feels like I’m actually this person and that I have changed into an evil person and it’s so scary cause it’s gotten to the point where it feels like I’m never going to get my life back and that’s saddening. I’ve never had a violent history never hurt anyone or anything but I don’t know why it feels like I am.

Username: Taylen

Date posted: 2y ago

im scared, need advice quick.

I’ve been recently struggling so much with the intrusive thoughts and images, it was bad at first but now its worse. I cant even cry anymore. Im questioning myself. am i really crazy? am i really scared if these thoughts? what if i lose my self control? what if i am my intrusive thoughts? what if i don’t feel bad about them? im so scared my life is being taken over im not myself anymore i feel like im going through derealization as well which i’ve struggled with in the past. I haven’t been diagnosed but am almost 100% sure i have harm OCD im talking to a therapist and a doctor to get me on pills. Someone help me please or give me advice i feel so disgusted looking at myself bc i feel like im a sick human. These thoughts are against my family, especially my mom which is the person i love the most in the world. Im only 13 and miss my old self. I regret watching Dahmer so much, which is what initially caused this for the first time. What if im never gonna be the same again. I cant sleep i feel sick even eating. Am i alone on this.

Username: Allier792

Date posted: 1y ago

I’m scared

Hi. I’m just really scared and I want to ask questions. I have been ocd and have been really suffering since December. The intrusive thoughts come like I want them now and it’s more of a “ well oh yeah you want to do that, and it’s gonna happen” and I start panicking and can’t focus and it scares the shit out of me. Is that ocd? Or is there something wrong with my brain and I’m actually some psychopath you see in a movie? I’m terrified. Im scared to be around my family, I’m scared to be around everyone. But I’m scared to be alone as well because I’m alone with the thoughts. What if these aren’t intrusive thoughts and I’m actually some terrible person who’s gonna hurt someone or is actually some psychopath who’s crazy? I hate this so much because I use to be so happy and not have any of these intrusive thoughts or worried that I was going to to hurt someone and now I’m so scared all the time. Can someone please answer some of these questions? I just want to make sure that this is ocd and I’m not a terrible person.

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