Existential OCD please help

I really need help. I’m suffering from existential ocd and I want to hear experience from those who are suffering from the same thing. I don’t feel real. I dont feel like I’m really here and if I am I dont really see the point in doing anything if I’m just going to die. I hate this feeling of feeling like I shouldn’t do anything at all because I’m gonna die and it’s gonna be erased anyway. I hate this. I cant stand this and I should be grateful for my life because there others that will never experience it. But it’s becoming dreadful and I feel like I’m going crazy. I feel sick. This feels worst than my other themes. I hate it so much.

Username: tylermatthewsneadtylermatthew...

Date posted: 43w ago

I know it feels very strange. Like an out of body experience, but i promise that eventually your mind and body will come back to balance. You’re not gonna wanna hear this but you have to sit with the thoughts and let them play out. It sucks right now , but it’ll phase out just like OCD always does. You do have a purpose in life as that’s to be alive and create wonderful memories , make friends, build relationships and do things you love to do.

Username: TechnoRecordTechnoRecord

Date posted: 43w ago

@tylermatthewsnead I really i hope it does phase out. Thank you for your response. It really means alot

Username: tylermatthewsneadtylermatthew...

Date posted: 43w ago

@TechnoRecord It definitely will. One thing is certain OCD will always phase out onto something else. It’s our response to the thoughts.

Username: MissKellyErfMissKellyErf

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 43w ago

@tylermatthewsnead It sucks being in the moment though. I talk out loud to it, almost like I hate that you’re here again but I’ll sit with you and not let you get the best of me.

Username: benjita1benjita1

Date posted: 43w ago

Hi, I had Existential OCD back last year and it was the reason I decided to go onto medication. I used to read quite a lot of Reddit posts about OCD and a theme kept coming up - Existential OCD. Everyone would say it was the worst theme they ever had and at the time I didn’t know what it was. I stupidly googled it and it started the spiral that I suffered afterwards. Mine was around the universe and the vastness of it. Things like this used to interest me a little but it wasn’t until I really was suffering that I found it terrifying. I was experiencing DPDR. I don’t know what it was at the time but I went and had a couple of sessions with a councillor friend of mine who explained that DPDR is a normal thing to experience when going through a huge amount of stress, a way the brain protects you. This is how I understood how it works - you have a glass of water and you keep topping it up (Anxiety). The glass gets fuller until it starts overflowing (DPDR experienced). I found by reducing my anxiety level the DPDR would subside and if the glass started to overflow again it would come back. I spoke to my doctor at the time and I was prescribed Sertraline which worked wonders for the anxiety I was experiencing. I found NOCD and a few others on TikTok/Youtube about Existential OCD and I no longer felt alone in what I was going through. Over the coming months my Existential thoughts reduced only to be replaced with another distressing theme but hay, that’s OCD for you! Are you able to see a doctor and explain what you are going through? There was an interesting website I found which explained how DPDR works which maybe of interest. It was DP Manual. I hope this helps a little and remember existential thoughts are common and a lot of people experience them at some point in their lives, it’s only natural to wonder such questions.

Username: TechnoRecordTechnoRecord

Date posted: 43w ago

@benjita1 Yeah this is probably the worst thing ai experienced and it only started to kick in a few days ago. I haven’t found a doctor at all. I dont have insurance at the momment. My nightmares are starting to become overwhelming. I heard of DPDR but I didnt realize it felt this horrible. Do you have the Manual or know the name of it? I think I need something to navigate me threw it. But thank you. I know it natural. I just can’t believe I thought these questions were stupid before and I now I’m experiencing them. It just feels like too much right now

Username: benjita1benjita1

Date posted: 43w ago

@TechnoRecord Yeah it’s www.dpmanual.com The website is very good and helped me a lot when I didn’t fully understand what I was going through.

Username: TechnoRecordTechnoRecord

Date posted: 43w ago

@benjita1 Thank you

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 43w ago

I’m dealing with the same thing. Been stuck in DPDR for over a year and a half and feel there’s now way out of it. I had panic attacks and my life has never been the same - the attacks were over fear of physical sensations. Now I don’t even get physical anxiety, I’m just numb to everything and my life doesn’t even feel real

Username: astrologygeek

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Feeling so alone with existential OCD

Anyone else struggle with existential OCD? I’m constantly questioning my reality or what’s the purpose of us being here…most days I don’t even want to get out of bed or eat…it’s getting too much for me to handle honestly 😣😢

Existential OCD

Username: reaganmarie

Date posted: 1y ago

Existential OCD

For the past week-ish I have been having a really scary existential crisis that feels like it is stemming from ocd. It started with me being freaking out that i’m going to die one day, then it merge into me being freaked out about what was going to happen after I die (mostly the thought of nothingness). I found some very brief relief in some spiritual beliefs and watching psychic medium readings but then I started think about even bigger and harder to answer questions such as, “if there is a God, who created God?”, “Is the afterlife scary?”, “Could the afterlife end one day?” “What is the point of anything at all?”, “Will the sun exploding destroy whatever afterlife exist?” Really ridiculous questions. I truly believe that there is something after death and something that exists as a life force science cannot explain, but the fact that my mind can’t comprehend or figure it out is really really scary. I feel as if I am going crazy. I have been thinking about nothing but the universe and the meaning behind it all and where it all came from. I can’t enjoy anything anymore. I just want to lay in bed all day and even that is hard. I have been non-stop watching videos about people’s beliefs about this topic trying desperately to find some sort of answer and I am starting to think that may be a compulsion. I am trying my best to remind myself that I when I die I will have all the answers to these questions and I don’t need to worry about this right now because it truly doesn’t affect anything or change anything in my life but it is really hard. I feel as if I have “uncovered” something and my life will never return to normal again. I am terrified that I am going to go crazy or start having hallucinations and that I’ve ruined my life by researching into something so complex and not understandable at all. Any kind of suggestions or anything would be helpful, I hate dealing with this and feeling so crazy and hopeless.

Username: M11e02j0M5!

Date posted: 1y ago

Existential OCD

I haven’t been diagnosed with existential ocd but I have every single one of the symptoms. Death/afterlife and the meaning of life is 90% of what I think about day after day. I really hate it. I wish I could go back to the days when I never thought about death. I really just want it to stop. The worst part is know that no matter what it’s inevitable and nobody can stop it😞 any suggestions on how to feel better??

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