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Username: Anonymous 25#

Date posted: 1y ago

Harm OCD

Hello, My name is Dana, I’m new to this app but I’ve been suffering from harm OCD for quite some time now and it’s been extremely debilitating. I’ve never experienced anything like this EVER in my life. It started at the beginning of this year, I got hit like a runaway train with intrusive thoughts and it shook me to my core. I wanted to see if anyone on here has struggled or is currently struggling with harm OCD and could maybe share their stories? It would just be nice to feel less alone and maybe share what has worked/not worked. All I want to do is overcome this! Thanks in advance to all who respond.

Username: NorthstarsNorthstars

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Hi! I have HOCD and I promise that with therapy it does get better. I've had it for as long as I can remember, except mine also included harm compulsions which led to self harm to prevent me from killing myself/someone else, at least in my head (i.e. "cut yourself or you'll stab someone else"). Chances are you'll always have some remnant of the disorder, as I have never really heard of OCD going away, but follow your therapist's advice. Trust them. It's going to seem crazy some of what they'll ask you to do but it really is in your best interest. I had to stand at the top of a building at the edge and imagine jumping off, I had to hold a knife to a therapist's back. It's terrifying but it is so worth it. You can do this.

Username: Anonymous 25#Anonymous 25#

Date posted: 1y ago

@Northstars Thank you so much for this

Username: NorthstarsNorthstars

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

@Santo123# Of course, best wishes to you and your treatment

Username: Brynnie BearBrynnie Bear

Date posted: 1y ago

It’s debilitating for me too but I’m better now and you can also get better ❤️💕

Username: overthinker1234overthinker1234

Date posted: 1y ago

hey! Welcome ❤️ can you be a little more specific about your harm OCD? If not that’s ok, I just want to see if I can relate but don’t want to be mistaken if it’s not the same

Username: Anonymous 25#Anonymous 25#

Date posted: 1y ago

@overthinker1234 Hey ! Yes so it started out as harm towards my children, then switched to me doing something that would lead me to go to prison and now the most recent and distressing content I’ve been dealing with is self harm (suicidal thoughts). I absolutely do not want to hurt myself or die in any way shape or form!! But wow how disturbing and scary it’s been dealing with this one.

Username: overthinker1234overthinker1234

Date posted: 1y ago

@Santo123# hey! so yes I have had similar thoughts about bad things happening to people i love and thinking that “i wish” for them to happen. and afterwards i feel awful and wish them away. and it is definitely disturbing. I have been dealing with sexual OCD as well which in a way is also harm because I am convincing myself I want to do bad things to people (children, babies, animals, etc.) and I know i’d never want to or wish that but i keep saying i do and that me saying i don’t is just me convincing myself of that to make myself not seem like a bad sick person. you aren’t alone

Username: Anonymous 25#Anonymous 25#

Date posted: 1y ago

@overthinker1234 Have you don’t anything to help you get through it?

Username: Kadance1118Kadance1118

Date posted: 1y ago

@Santo123# This is me To a T…I feel like I’ll snap like the hulk ..and am so afraid I’ll hurt someone ..how did u get past the thoughts of hurting someone you love ?

Username: Kadance1118Kadance1118

Date posted: 1y ago

@Kadance1118 I meant that to be for overthinker1234

Username: overthinker1234overthinker1234

Date posted: 1y ago

@Santo123# i’m starting therapy tomorrow and will probably have to get on meds. i’ve been trying to tell myself it’s my ocd and it isn’t true but that isn’t really working

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 1y ago

@overthinker1234 @Santo123# I have had these exact harm themes and mine came out of NOWHERE 3 months ago. I had covid at the time and also had just recently started Zoloft (10 days in) for panic disorder. Panic attacks went away but the intrusive thoughts debilitated me and still cause me issues daily. I now take lexapro. I had no idea what happened to me it’s the worst thing I’ve ever been through thus far in my life.

Username: Catlove9Catlove9

Date posted: 1y ago

I’ve been dealing with harm ocd for almost 5 years. It came out of nowhere and has been the worst OCD experience. You are definitely not alone. It makes me feel like at any minute I’m going to just snap and do something horrible.

Username: Anonymous 25#Anonymous 25#

Date posted: 1y ago

@Catlove9 Yes that’s how I feel ! I’ve been experiencing such self doubt like questioning myself if I could really do something to myself? And then I go into extreme guilt and sadness looking at my kids thinking they’re guna be without a mom. It’s been so terrible. Is this common with OCD? What have you done to help you?

Username: Catlove9Catlove9

Date posted: 1y ago

@Santo123# It’s super common. I think harm ocd is definitely one of the most common. Have you started ERP therapy ?

Username: Anonymous 25#Anonymous 25#

Date posted: 1y ago

@Catlove9 To be very honest the therapist I work with was understanding of OCD but I don’t feel she’s pushy enough with the ERP stuff. So I ended up pushing myself to do some exposures but I don’t know if I’m doing it right ? Have you?? If so, what kinds have you done with harm?

Username: Catlove9Catlove9

Date posted: 1y ago

@Santo123# Yah. I struggle with the same. I also worry I use them as compulsions. Like just to get rid of the thoughts. Now I just try to sit with the anxiety. Which I’m not even sure I’m doing right because I feel like “how the hell can I do this when it feels like I’m about to do something awful.”

Username: Anonymous 25#Anonymous 25#

Date posted: 1y ago

@Catlove9 Yup exactly! I just want to get through it !

Username: kennyakennya

Date posted: 1y ago

I want to let you know that you’re not alone. Mine started last year I still remember the first time that I had a horrible thought about my kid. I’ve been on Prozac since then. My OCD got really bad when my sister passed away, be strong your kids need you. Trust me you will get better. Trust the process pray, face your fear.

Username: Anonymous 25#Anonymous 25#

Date posted: 1y ago

@kennya Thank you so much ! I’m working on it daily

Username: kennyakennya

Date posted: 1y ago

@Santo123# You can do this. Don’t let this control your life.

Username: Overdramaticoliver Overdramatic...

Date posted: 13w ago

Hey I see you posted this a long time ago. I also have harm ocd and am really struggling at the moment. If you’re still here, how have things been going for you?

Username: Anonymous 25#Anonymous 25#

Date posted: 13w ago

@Overdramaticoliver Hey I’m doing okay. My advice to you (which is currently helping me) work on your body. I started practicing yoga and meditation, a lot of breath work and grounding. Your brain and body work together. Once you can calm your body/nervous system your mind will slowly wind down. I know what you’re going through it’s awful. This has helped me so far!

Username: Who_knows?Who_knows?

Date posted: 13w ago

Hi , how are you doing , currently going through this I haven’t been diagnosed but I’ve always been afraid of dying and leaving my kids behind I have death and health anxiety and before this “theme” I was scared I was going to die from a heart attack or die in my sleep and then an image popped into my head and then went to “s” thoughts . It’s been since may and it’s hard . I have thoughts of “I can’t do this “ and just start crying and then have thoughts of “I want to give up” and then the “s” thoughts start flooding in .

Username: thejent

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2y ago

Introduction

Hi Everyone, I am new to the group and was diagnosed with OCD in December 2021. I struggle with harm and relationship OCD. I have limited social/emotional support from my partner (this is a work in progress) and I am trying to do all I can to heal/recover, so I am posting here on the reccomendation of my NOCD therapist. Although I experienced rumination and obsessive thinking for years, intense anxiety and past trauma brought on intrusive thought symptoms several months ago. This is my first time talking openly in a forum like this about my OCD.

Harm OCD

Username: Kenzie Madison

Date posted: 2y ago

Those with Harm OCD

Hey guys. I’ve been dealing with Harm OCD for around 3 and 1/2 months now, and it’s been extremely difficult to experience. I’ve had OCD my whole life and some of my family members do as well, one of my cousins actually has the same main subtype as me, but he was diagnosed almost a year ago when I didn’t have it myself. I’ve been going to an OCD & Anxiety Treatment Center the past week and I’m really struggling with the exposures we do there, as well as the ones we do at home. I constantly feel like I’m judging myself and I genuinely feel worthless, like I’m a horrible person to have unwanted intrusive thoughts like these. I feel like it’s so difficult to stay mindful and to not judge any of the thoughts that surface. Those with Harm OCD, have any of you here gone from debilitating OCD to living fulfilling lives? If so, what was the process like for you, if you’d like to share? Thanks and I hope you’re all doing well, or are continuing to improve.

Username: mslove

Date posted: 1y ago

Harm ocd

Hello everyone my journey with harm ocd has been so distressing and can’t even describe how lost and lonely I feel. I also had a moment yesterday where I had another moment of harm ocd and my thoughts were saying “yes just do it”. Brought me to tears. Has anyone ever experienced something like this?

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