Do I have OCD???

Hi idk how to start this but Im a 16 year old dude any My therapist says I have PTSD, Panic Disorder and maybe ADHD. Im pretty sure Im autistic, same with my mom and brother and many other family members. for years now ive had my friends telling me to get checked for OCD and im starting to think they might be right. anyways, for one thing, I get like really bad intrusive thoughts. Its really hard for me to be around kids, I cant stop thinking about horrible things happening wether its me messing up and hurting them or me hurting them on purpose, usually sexually. I have always been overly concered with seeming creepy in romantic relationships. Ive only dated one person younger than me EVER and its one of my current partners (polyamory) and shes a day younger than me and even that makes me feel like a creep whos taking Advantage of her, I cry if I sit with my partners while they sleep and im awake becaude im scared im going to hurt them, I wont Initiate intimate acts at all because If I do I will cry because it cant not feel like rape to me if I initate. Numbers. Holy shit the numbers. I count my steps, I count how many times I adjust my hair, I count how many food items im eating, everything. and If I dont I feel like Ive done it wrong somehow. I have to press the crosswalk the right amount of times or i feel like ill get hit, I have to wash my hands using the right amount of steps and repeating them the right amount of times or Ill get sick and Ill throw up (I have ptsd from a major sickness when I was a kid, and my triggers are almost all related to throwing up). I dont know if theyre intrusive thoughts, but I also get intense images or thoughts that are so intense I think they are real, of me hurting myself, hurting others, throwing up, other throwing up. I think it is worth mentioning that I have HPPD, and some pretty intense Halluzinations from past psycedellic and delirent drug use. My have bad memory from using but even before then Ive always thought that maybe Im not remembering right and I freak out about it and ask family if im tripping myself out or i remember it right. Idk theres definately more to this that i dont feel like typing, I just want to know if Im tripping myself out or its actually OCD, I want to know before I being it to my parents or my therapist. Help!

Username: LikeAnOnionLikeAnOnion

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y ago

Yeah, that’s OCD alright

Username: TapDrumRollTapDrumRoll

Date posted: 1y ago

There are many levels of autism. So not sure about the autism. But for OCD the Yale Brown Obsessive Compulsive Scale would be used to see if it’s ocd. They would have you fill this questionnaire out and that way they can determine if it’s ocd and see how much you do suffer on a daily basis. I’ve been diagnosed with many things throughout the years and then other doctors will rule them out and years later another will rule them back in. We are very complex, all of us. They can’t hang one title on us really. I cant speak of the sexual part. You are young, teen years are tough years for all people though. We are just coming to grips with who we are and what we like and who we like and are attracted to. What attracts us changes and morphs as we get older and experience more relationships. You may be attracted to older women in 10 years, so it’s not a bad thing to be attracted to younger people within reason. Our brains have plasticity, meaning we can always improve it. We build new synapses and neurons when we learn new things, meet new people and exercise our bodies. Make learning new things a habit. Puzzles, reading, painting, foreign language a job that challenges your brain, those things help your memory immensely. Because I have done hallucinogenics in my teen years, about a dozen of times & pot for years after that. I realized by accident that after learning to paint, learn how to play an instrument, read books and remember peoples names, that my brain was changing and holding on to events, names, and enabling me to make better decisions and be more analytical and have more patience to pay attention to details. If you don’t feel comfortable with your doctors opinion/diagnosis then try another. I also think that fact that you are concerned about the sexual thoughts is good thing. I’m not saying obsessing about them is good for you. But if you think you are bad and are horrible, that is very rigid label you place on yourself. You will be limiting yourself from enjoying any relationships if you just cease to have them. So the alternative is to have the relationship and learn about yourself, learn about what/who you like. If it feels uncomfortable, then give yourself permission to step back for a bit, ground yourself and try again. That is only my opinion, I am not all knowing, but I am in my 50s and have some experience in life. I hope some of this helps you.❤️

Username: JenniesOCDBrainJenniesOCDBrain

Date posted: 1y ago

hey there, i just wanted to say that it sounds like you're going through a lot right now, and i'm really sorry to hear about the struggles you're facing. i suffer from pure o myself, with different obsessions, but i totally get how overwhelming and exhausting ocd can be. just know that i'm here to listen if you need to vent or talk about what you're going through. so my therapist told me about this free ai ocd therapy tool called "unstuck" (www.AIOCDtool.com), and i thought of you when i heard about it. given the intrusive thoughts and compulsions you're dealing with, like the counting and the intense worry about harming others, this tool could be a game-changer for you. it's designed to help you break free from ocd by guiding you through the steps you'd take with a trained therapist, but it's an ai that's available anytime you need it. you basically type in what's bugging you, and it walks you through the process, just like an ocd therapist would, to help you manage those overwhelming thoughts and urges. i really don't like when people push apps, but i'm bringing this up because it's genuinely helped me out and i just want to pass on something that could make a difference for you. if you have any questions about how it works or anything, i'm happy to chat. remember, you're not alone in this. 🌟

Username: AidenHeph420AidenHeph420

Date posted: 1y ago

I went through all of the intro stuff but it makes me pay to use the app, and I dont really have money like that :[

Username: JenniesOCDBrainJenniesOCDBrain

Date posted: 1y ago

@AidenHeph420 - ah they must have changed it then :/ you used to be able to use it before needing to pay.. but also i think if you just reach out to them they'll give it to you at discount or for free!

Username: Celi

Date posted: 2y ago

Advice For Someone Undiagnosed

i'm sorry in advance for how long this post is and if it's to much information. i'm undiagnosed but have been struggling with compulsions and intrusive thoughts since i was 7 or 8. My worst intrusive thoughts theme has been about p*d*phil*s. I've been dealing with it since my freshman and sophomore year but these thoughts didn't become debilitating until June of last year. I had a panic attack and confessed to my parents about these intrusive thoughts. They were obviously shocked and share. I felt so ashamed and like a monster. After talking with my dad he said we would see a therapist about it. Sadly we never did the first appointment we were late and missed are spot and the second appointment i sprained my ankle the night before so instead i was in the hospital. After that i closed myself off i tried dealing with them on my own using sources like NOCD and stuff. I did try to bring up going to therapy to my parents. Every time they would ask me if the intrusive thoughts were back and I would lie saying "no i just would like to go to therapy" I was so scared they'd be afraid of me and stop loving me, especially my mom. Eventually after awhile my parents forgot about it and I tried ignoring these intrusive thoughts because I was so focused and stressed from school. I decided I could just wait till I turn 18 and schedule myself into therapy. recently though my intrusive thoughts have gotten worse. I recently had a convo with one of my friends who has intrusive thoughts as well and she's encouraging me to talk to my parents. I'm asking y'all what should I do. As much as I'm scared I want to get help because I'm sick of living and feeling like i'm day away from acting on my intrusive thoughts.

Username: jihyoloml

Date posted: 1y ago

Am i experiencing OCD?

Hi. my name is Ally, im 18 and im in my last year of high school. i've always been in and out of therapy, but I've never been able to get to the route of the problems i have. I constantly fear talking about things like this, but here i go. -horrible thoughts of things such as rape, pedophilia, beastiality and incest popping into my head randomly (NOT URGES !!!!) and coming up in my dreams. -expecting the worst outcomes -believing that my actions control what will happen next in my life (if i dont do this specific thing, i will die or someone in my family will die) -intrusive thoughts and dreams that feel so real i believe it actually happened. i dont mean to intrude, this is a very safe space for people who suffer with OCD. i just feel i have no where else to turn. does this sound like ocd? something else? please if you can, i cant live thinking and feeling this way anymore, please help me.

Username: katee.evans29

Date posted: 1y ago

i need help

hii everyone, so, it has been about 2 or 3 years I’d say since I’ve been dealing with this. let’s just get right into it, so first, whatever I have (which might be OCD, I’m not entirely sure what it is) has taken over basically most of my childhood, and what kills me is that I’ll never get it back. one thing I know is that im not normal, i now get sleepless nights. why you may ask? because of my horrifying thoughts, “if you don’t look up you’ll be praying to the devil and you’ll go to hell!” “if you don’t say ‘God bless them’ their condition will happen to you!” “if you don’t say ‘good yetho 2x’ (idek..) ‘your mom will die 5x’ you’ll die and forget how to read. “if you don’t put your arms up, look directly up at the ceiling because if you look down you’ll pray to the devil so you need to look up, and say ‘Dear Heavenly Father, I pray that you forgive me for my sins in the name of Jesus Christ Amen.’ you’ll go straight to hell!” or whenever I touch a wall, i need to touch it with my small finger because if I touch it twice with my pointer finger my body will go to hell. it’s an endless cycle, and what’s even worse is that I may never be able to get help. I’ll never get that life back that I wanna live, and it kills me. I’ve named most of the compulsions and obsessions I have and I have 18 compulsions that are physical and about 5 obsessions that I really don’t wanna name right now. anyway, i really don’t know what’s wrong with me. I’ve done a lot of research regarding around disorders, and it’s safe to say that I may have OCD. Now, do i want ocd? absolutely not. however, there’s a family member in my family who has it. so the chances of me having it are strong, i don’t think I’m able to get better until I’m 18. an adult. I’m 12 years old, my mom has noticed my compulsions and me repeating certain words. but she does nothing, absolutely nothing. instead, she just argues with me over it. if I ever tell my mom to sit down and ask her about getting a test, she would probably call me the R-Slur and tell me I’m crazy. Therefore, I’m all alone in this situation with no one to help me. another obsession I have is about me catching cancer if I don’t do a compulsion or I might get paralyzed and get sleep paralysis. It’s so horrifying, there’s more obsessions and compulsions I have but I really don’t wanna name them right now. I cry almost every day because of how exhausted I am, and how much help i truly want to get but I don’t think I ever will. I’m unsure whether or not I have ocd, people tell me to get a diagnosis. but the situation I am in right now makes it impossible. i have no way of getting tested but I have a good feeling I have ocd, if you’re reading this, please try to give me your thoughts and what I should do, and if I even have OCD. Thanks! :))

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