Feeling someone standing behind me?/schizocd

@Wildflower1234 Yes! My therapist said the urge to look behind me is a compulsion. Just sucks because I have the urge quite often.

@juliapuleo1 That is so refreshing to know that somebody else is experiencing this. I literally haven’t met anyone else who has this symptom. May I ask how old you are? And if you have any official diagnosis’?

@mrselfdestruct1994 I feel refreshed too because I had no idea how to actually put into words & you did exactly that… I’m 25 & officially diagnosed with OCD.

@juliapuleo1 Yes yes yes!!! Exactly, it is so so frightening. Everything I look up about this sensation is super triggering too. It’s only solidifying my worries that I’m developing schizophrenia. Im in a state of pure terror 24/7 just anticipating a full psychotic break or something. It sucks so much. I’ve been stuck in this hell for 4 months now. It’s all I can think about. I literally lost my job because of this

@juliapuleo1 Yes I do, it’s exactly like that.

@juliapuleo1 The physical sensation is just so strong. It’s almost like my back is sensitive/ticklish/just weirdly tense, idek how to describe it.

@mrselfdestruct1994 Same… I feel my neck/back is hot all the time

@juliapuleo1 Yes I do, she seems to think the same as yours as well. I just have a really hard time believing that such symptoms can ONLY be ocd or anxiety. Especially when the only things that pop up when I research it are “presence hallucinations” and other scary stuff

@mrselfdestruct1994 Same. I always have a hard time believing this is just OCD although my therapist mentioned that thought too, is OCD talking as well. Idk anymore but I think I’m gonna mention it to her again & try to get more insight

@juliapuleo1 Same here my friend. Do you have any other symptoms that concern you? Specially about like psychosis

@mrselfdestruct1994 Not really… This is the worst symptom I’ve had. I used to feel pressure in my ears & be afraid that meant voices were coming, which I was told I wouldnt have that awareness if I were to be Scizophrenic. What about you?

@juliapuleo1 Dude no way…. I swear on my mothers grave I have the same ear symptom too dude

@juliapuleo1 I wish I could send screenshots over this app, but I could literally show you where I posted about that same ear symptom on Reddit

@mrselfdestruct1994 I think I actually might of seen your post on reddit! Add me on instagram @julia_puleo if you feel comfortable lol we seem to have a lot in common maybe itll help a littke bit?

@juliapuleo1 Sent you a follow request. My @ is selfdestructvinyls

@Don’tLoveDrama-itLovesMe Do you have any official diagnosis’ if you don’t mind me asking

@mrselfdestruct1994 Yeah no problem yes I do have an official OCD diagnosis

@Don’tLoveDrama-itLovesMe Are you diagnosed with anything else

@mrselfdestruct1994 Also, high amounts of stress can cause hallucinations in anyone And OCD is chronic stress

@mrselfdestruct1994 Yes I am Autistic, and have OCD.

@Don’tLoveDrama-itLovesMe Thank you for responding, I’m sorry if it was too personal. I’m just SO terrified of developing schizophrenia. I’ve been in hell for months obsessing over this, I lost my job from the stress and symptoms. I’m basically housebound

@mrselfdestruct1994 Hey your totally good it is not a stress I am privileged to find meaning in my last suffering via trying* to help others experiencing it currently

@mrselfdestruct1994 Also, I know this is basic but maybe try to seek out therapy? I know it can be embarrassing to be that vulnerable BUT if you find a therapist that specializes in OCD they will probably give you unconditional acceptance Also, my life changed through trial and error of different medications when I found the one right for me It also took the patience of amazing doctors who sat down with me to really get to the heart of what was wrong I felt so depressed from OCD I wanted to kill myself. Most people would have given me an antidepressant which would have only made things worse Thankfully, my doctor realized I needed a common ADHD Medication that oddly enough helped my OCD be easier to cope with WHICH made me less depressed and then I didn’t want to kill myself anymore. Tbh idk why I told you all that lol just hope you can take something from all that lol