I don’t feel like I’m genuinely good

I wouldn't say you're lucky because no one with OCD is lucky in that regard, but personally I think it's really hopeful for you that you're only 14 and you already know you have OCD. Some people don't learn until late in their lives that they have this condition. Intrusive thoughts and obsessions will come when you're an adult, but the tools and skills you learn now will greatly prepare you for when you're an adult with OCD

I 100% know how you feel!! I’ve had awful intrusive thoughts but remember ocd latches onto what we value most. Remember to sit with the thoughts and don’t engage. Just be like ok ocd I hear you. Anyway back to what I was doing, place your anxiety aswell, where you’re feeling anxious, like hands shaking maybe? Upset stomach? Tightness in your chest? Feel that and let those feelings be there. When I get really bad anxiety I close my eyes and say ok ocd what do you have to say? Then I get flooded with intrusive thoughts and let them be there, I feel where the anxiety is in my body and focus on my breathing and let the anxiety peak and go down and sometimes I won’t do down fully and that’s ok. Give it like a couple minutes and see how you feel! I’m glad you’re taking care of yourself at such a young age I wasn’t diagnosed until I was 24-25 now 26

Me too :( I’m very oh so very sorry. I’m 18 and all I really wanna do is put my brain in a washing machine

You are actually at an advantage! Hear me out... you're 14 and have the diagnosis already, so you're ahead of the game. If you do ERP therapy, you can reduce your symptoms significantly and have a very strong chance of getting to the point where it doesn't meet the criteria for the disorder diagnosis! You have a bright future ahead, it won't always be like this. With therapy, you can have it under control and manage it well as you continue living your life according to what matters to you (which will evolve over time, of course). I know how hard this is. I've had it my whole life and was diagnosed at 25, my teen years were hard without therapy, but I made it through. With therapy, you will be unstoppable! 🥰

You are young. Do you think maybe you are obsessing about OCD? This is not going to be forever. I promise! Although at this time each day for you must feel soo long. Don't worry about being a good person or not. Don't worry about anything. Just be and learn to know yourself.