Harm OCD

It sent me into a really bad spiral. I didn’t know the woman’s name and looked it up to see who you were talking about and got a wave of anxiety over my body lol. I could feel the blood leave my face. You’re not alone. I have a daughter and this scares me really bad.

I just posted this too!!!! I’m very triggered by it. I had a really good run before this happened and it’s being talked about everywhere , at my work, friends, I can’t escape it!

Me. 100%. I just commented on another thread as well. I have a friend who was friends with her and worked with her so it is hitting so close to home. It’s all anyone is talking about as we live near by. I have cried looking at my kids recently worried that somehow that could be me.

Yes. I've been so triggered by this. I have harm ocd surrounding my child and one of my biggest fears is going crazy and causing harm etc...I tried reading about this as an exposure and when I read all of the details(I don't know why they would include the details of the scene) I freaked out with overwhelming anxiety and I can't get out of this cycle now of anxiety ruminating all if that. Thinking this will be or could be me someday makes me feel so sick to my stomach and depressed... I feel guilty that I have made this tragedy personal with my ocd.. does anyone else feel the same? How are you dealing? My therapist says not to compare..it is so triggering it's overwhelming

I just posted about this. I have two beautiful children. It was very triggering. I kept having anxiety attacks thinking that could be me. How do we not compare ourselves to this?

My heart goes out to all the Mama’s struggling over this story.🤍

It was so devastating. The hardest part of all of it (aside from the obvious devastation for their family) was the shame that’s followed for moms that have dealt/are dealing with anything postpartum related from uneducated, insensitive people. We have zero idea right now what she was truly going through. So many have jumped on this bandwagon of PP shame and it’s very scary as a mother to read. I’ve read horrible, horrible comments that have been so triggering as a mom struggling with OCD. Do I believe Tik Tok is a lion’s den and broadcasting to those that have zero understanding is wise? No. I think platforms like this where we all can understand each other is much healthier. I’ve had to disengage from all of it. It’s much too triggering for me.

At this point only god knows why it happened. Maybe this will push psychiatry to further research and trial for ppd or ppp. I’ve exhausted myself trying to figure it out. Mental Illness is the worst. I’m nervous around my babies. My compulsion is I just keep praying.