I am struggling a lot right now with ocd convincing me I want to hurt my partner when I know deep down I don’t. It’s more so a feeling then a thought. I’m just scared that one day I’ll be convinced or give in into the thought. I don’t want to feel like I would hurt my partner anyone else ?
Hello honey, I just wanted to say that I get what you are going through. My harm OCD started with me thinking that I have hurt my brother and ex foster sister sexually. Then that led to me getting really bad thoughts of hurting (even killing) my partner. I am in love with my boyfriend and would never hurt him. It leaves me shaking and scared. I panic a lot because of it. I'm still dealing with it to this day!!!
Oh 100% it always me being scared I will act on it but hey! We haven’t yet 💖and that’s all that matters
I’m going through that today, even in a crappy mood I have to say , maybe I will maybe I won’t. 🥴😔 I hate it here.
I get these feelings, thoughts, images almost every day about hurting my partner. It's awful. My harm ocd is getting better every week and it still scares me deeply when I think these things. I think "what if I just snap one day and hurt her?" Sometimes I do exposures for ERP where she's near me while I'm holding a knife or a hammer. She trusts me so much. At the end of the day it's like the therapist keeps telling me: I may or may not hurt someone in the future. And that's what makes the harm ocd thoughts get quieter every week.
@Jesse M. That’s what scares me though the “May or may not “ I don’t understand how this would help me it makes me worry more
@Anonymous999 My experience with ERP is that I feel more anxious, and I stick with it, and then somehow I feel less anxious
Hi! Anyone dealing with SO OCD and have a partner? I am having the hardest time with this. The thoughts and feelings feel so real and scary but there’s moments where I have felt love and attraction for my boyfriend, but right now it feels so hard to believe that was true.
Hi, I have been struggling with OCD for 7 months now. First there were incestuous thoughts related to the mother. I was very bad for two months, I couldn't sleep and I had severe depression. I went to a psychiatrist and started therapy. After two weeks it was as if I woke up from a nightmare. All the obsessive thoughts stopped, the anxiety stopped and I was back to my new life again. I found a girlfriend and it was great. After about 3 months, the thoughts came back again, this time about my girlfriend. I started to wonder if I loved her, if I would be better off with someone else. And that stopped over time. A few days ago I went to the kitchen and saw a knife. I suddenly got scared and thought what if I hurt my girlfriend. I constantly analyzed that thought and asked myself if I could do it, if I wanted to. And it got to the point that I convinced myself that I wanted to hurt her and that I was just lying that I didn't want to. I became very anxious and scared again. My girlfriend has known about my problem from the beginning and is a great support. She even gave me a knife and told me to sit next to her. Of course I didn't do anything, I just threw the knife away and started crying and hugging her. But in my mind I still want to do something bad. Can OCD convince you that you want something, even though deep down I don't want to hurt anyone. I just want everything to be like before and to have a normal life without obsessive thoughts. I really love my girlfriend and I want to have a family with her. Can OCD cause false desire and will it ever stop. I heard that ERP is the best way to fight OCD. How can I do ERP alone without a therapist. I am really afraid that I will hurt someone and become a murderer. Thank you for reading this and I send many greetings and I hope you are well.
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